Imprisoned within ourselves BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)
People need tο comprehend BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder)! Join, & share tаlеѕ. Currently I struggle wіth mу past. I attend therapy οn a daily basis аnd take many medications. I struggle frοm PTSD аnd BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), аll οf whісh іѕ ѕаіd tο hаνе come frοm mу childhood abuse, specially thе sexual abuse. Plus οthеr diagnoses such аѕ Social Anxiety, Disassociation Disorder, Panic Attacks, & thе drеаd & misunderstanding anything related tο SEX!!!!!! Fοr those whο suffer thе same, уου саn know whаt I аm going through. Bесаυѕе οf thеѕе disorders, mοѕt οf mу life exists around instability аnd much horrid mental pain. Thе anguish one goes through іѕ nο joke. Everyday wе try tο remain alive аnd well. Everyday аnd еνеrу second wе аrе dealing wіth thіѕ illness!
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
This video has visual shown how I’ve felt, for as far back as I can remember. Still have outburst every couple of days for 10-15 minutes and can’t ever remember what went on for that time or what I’ve said….Just recently diagnosed with new meds, was place on the incorrect pills for 14 years. 3 years sober from 6 years of all the things that place me into rehab…..I don’t cut myself or place cigarettes out on myself any more. I still bite my finger nails til they bleed (since 2nd grade).
Thank You.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
This video has visual shown how I’ve felt, for as far back as I can remember. Still have outburst every couple of days for 10-15 minutes and can’t ever remember what went on for that time or what I’ve said…..Just recently diagnosed with new meds, was place on the incorrect pills for 14 years. 3 years sober from 6 years of all the things that place me into rehab…..I don’t cut myself or place cigarettes out on myself any more. I still bite my finger nails til they bleed (since 2nd grade).
Thank You.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
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January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I have this aswell as social anxiety dissorder and dysthymia… and im only 15
it hurts like nothing else but i have no escape, it just keeps finding me
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I feel like i will fail and become even worse. It’s fantastic to see other people who feel a lot of the same things i do. I hope everyone gets better and constantly fights in this life.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I feel like often medication is a quick answer by doctors and the medical system that doesn’t want to spend time with patients. We are given a pill to fix everything. I’m not really against medication, but i feel like it isn’t the main answer.
I reckon the most hard thing in my life, and i don’t know if others here feel like this. But it’s not being able to change, i nearly feel powerless. I want something more and different, but i can’t get myself to do it.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
BPD is a very real disorder, i’m just not sure if medication is always the answer. I reckon i may be suffering from this, i have excellent days and terrible. But for the last two years i’ve imprisoned myself inside of my house because i no longer can handle peoples judgment. I always mark people in a black and white fashion and pretty much suffer from all of these symptoms.
I want to get on with my life and have the inspiration i used to.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
It is the worst thing ever. I despise everybody, everything, myself, everything seems pointless, full of pain, no joy… what’s the point? It leads to an existential depression because existence seems so futile, which inevitably leads to suicidal ideation. My only chance is my faith in music and my drumming and basically, like, and giving as much as I can, trying not to focus on recieving, as well as utitilizing DBT concepts such as mindfulness to get me through each moment, without feeling confusd
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
bpd fucking sucks! The pushing people away, the lonliness self harm anxiety depression low self esteem its like a living hell for me …….. and it’s not really understood by people. Nice to know im not alone
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
hey, i dont know you or much of what you go through but hang in there! Like.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I feel misjudged, and misunderstood and criticized every single day of my life. idk why that is. i just do. I sometimes wish that people understood how hard it is for me to just TRY and be or stay me. Cuz most of the time, it’s like i end up doing things i didn’t even know why i did. And how hard it is to control my emotions, rage, sadness and bitterness.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
Thank you so much for this video. I have felt this way as long as I can remember and I have never met anyone in real life who has had BPD. My last therapist diagnosed me with it but she is not longer in practice so I haven’t been seeing anyone. I feel like an outcast on this earth, like everyone belongs to a special clique and I am the weird one that nobody really gets. I will say that as I have gotten older (I just turned 30) my BPD symptoms have been less extreme.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
im a bpd sufferer but after watching this clip made me reckon that i am no the only one
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
its like one of the most devastating things ever….
its a constant struggle…
all I want is to get better…
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
“I have come to believe over and over again that what is most vital to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood.”~ Audre Lorde
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
@ThenThereWasJohnny
I hear ya. I have a young daughter & while faith is of skepticism at times, I will always like my daughter and I too don’t want to loose that. I wish you luck
~Janet
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
Sorry everyone. Don’t know why it says anything about 3 Doors Down. The right information about this song is:
Push (Interlude)
artist: Intercept
length: 7:09
genre: Rock
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
@SaLtYpReTzEl1416
Sorry, dunno why it says anything about 3 Doors Down. Here is the info:
Push (Interlude)
artist: Intercept
length: 7:09
genre: Rock
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I like this song. Does anyone know the name of this name and where I can download it? I tried googling the lyrics and got nothing. Youtube says it’s 3 Doors Down- Loser, but I looked it up and it doesn’t match.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder its very hard at times and often clash with many things. My only vice is my faith and like for my daughter… I dont ever want to lose that
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
my BPD is really terrible, it’s destroying me small by small. it doesn’t help that i refuse to take the medication they give me because i’m worried of addiction. and it doesn’t help that i’m frightened of my therapist because of abuse in the past. i despise being alone but i spend so much time like that. i cut, i attempt suicide. i don’t want this, i’m only 14 and have had BPD since i was 6. in an act of impulse i cut my hair that went to mid calf. i cutt off 4 feet of it and i loved my hair. why am i BPD?
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
@janetlynn1977 i know what scene your talking about in SAW, I am a cutter also. could you send me a personal email? i have something i want to share with you about ME.
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
Carlm2, Yes. Very often for me. I currently struggle with my current relationship, involving a child by him. It makes it that much more challenging.
We attend therapy to help, but he has his moments of doubt specially when we’re home. Its very hard & very lonely at times. I hope to have readers see my life’s journey, to what I hope is a recovery for this illness, to give hope for others. I find understanding in that 1 scene of the movie SAW 3, when Amanda cuts herself in frustration. Do u?
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
I want to thank all who’ve responded. Times are harder then ever. Personally I reckon it’s a New Era of Depression for everyone. Thus making life more challenging for those who suffer from ANY illness’s. I encourage you all to try your best, chin up & remember you’re not alone in these struggles. I know we feel alone inside our heads, I feel the same, but the more we share tales, the more we’ll know & help each other.
Feel free to question me ANY personal or NON-personal questions.
~Janet
January 11th, 2011 at 12:11 pm
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